Mark to Sue 28 pt 2
What I want right now, right this minute, is to hold you close again and let you hear my heart beating. Last Saturday my arms were around someone beautiful, warm and vibrant - a treasure of a moment after many bleak months. You opened that dark closet of my life and brought light and life as I held you against me.
There were many times as we walked together that I wanted to stop and take you in my arms and kiss you, but all the old fears stopped me. E-mail feels "safer", it gives me the freedom to express difficult feelings without too much risk of exposure. But I want to be exposed to you, I want to let you in. I want to feel your arms around me, my shoulders, my neck. And I want to give you comfort, strength . . . whatever magic it is that passes between two people.
Now the rain is starting again and I must be vigilant. But I would love to sit at this window with you next to me, cloistered by the rhythm of the rain on the roof and your embrace . . .
to be continue at noon, Friday March 23, 2007