Heartwork

Mark to Sue 15

May 6

Dear Sue:

            I pass by this machine dozens of times a day. Even at the least likely moments, I will check on the off-chance that something will be on the screen from you. I can only attribute such silliness to my strong desire to hear from you.

            Debate and concession were poor word choices. I was simply trying to describe, maybe over-emphasize, my tendency to avoid conflict - one of my weaknesses. Some people enjoy the challenge of persuasion - even live for it. I'm not one of them.

            I'm presently enjoying my position at the foot of Mt. Everest. In my daydreams I let my mind go to places it probably shouldn't - places I'd like to carry you to. But our reality at the "base camp" has us frozen in a dynamic tension of complexity. Perhaps, though, as you've said, complexity could be evidence of God's involvement. As I stare at Mt. Everest (or travel to unspeakable places), I, too, am reminded of fears, or issues to solve and overcome. I'm naturally programmed to seek perfection, and in doing so, find the negatives and count the costs. But in this case, it's as if my internal gyro is under Another's control, quietly assuring me, urging me forward. With no hesitation, I move on where there appeared to be nothing to stand on before. I find myself percolating inside with confidence and anticipation. Something truly refreshing has appeared at the most unexpected moment and in the most unexpected way . . .  You.

                                                             Mark

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